it feels good.
i've been here a lot lately. it's good and bad.
good that i only live 2 hours away and can get here every weekend if i need to.
good that i can hang with all my siblings. they are all here. i love that. it's fun to hang out.
good that ceily can hang with her cousins. one made her top ramen today. another one is going to fix her broken screen on her phone.
good that my sister will share her room with me. even though i make her turn the light out. it makes me "horrible" but i always say thanks.
good! good! good! that i have three babies to hold and snuggle and smell and love...thanks to bo, sunday and moses.
but it can be bad.
bad that i live two hours away and have to drive back tomorrow in the morning.
bad that i have to leave. it makes me lonely sometimes.
bad that i can't come back next weekend for mother's day. my mom told me not to.
we have to be back the following thursday and friday for page's wedding. (that's actually good.)
as i was thinking of these things, i realized that i haven't been able to see one of lana's soccer games this season. not one. i've been in arlington for all her games and have even made her miss a few so we could be here. it made me feel like a bad mother. it's good she has a better father that gets her there and cheers her on and even is her coach.
see, good and bad.
more good than bad.
that's good.
one more good thing.
cousins.
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