he's been away from us for a few. went to san diego to surf.
what the life he leads. i say it's a good thing he has a wife that supports him, huh?
it's true. absence does make the heart grow fonder.
as he was preparing to leave on his trip alone to surf, he mentioned he thought he had detected a bit of anger about him leaving. i told him i wasn't mad or angry. i was actually happy he was going. i'm glad he's able to travel and take vacations all alone. i did express some resentment. it's way, way, way easy for him to book a flight to the beach for 5 days. not as easy for me. so my momentary resentment is valid in my book. he agreed. i also mentioned i was looking forward to having the house all to myself. i would be all alone. alone. by myself. i like that.
i told him my favorite scene in the movie date night is with tina fey. she's in the car with steve carell and they are talking about fantasies. his has to do with cyndi lauper...hers has to do with being alone in a hotel room, reading a book and sipping her diet sprite, ALONE. all alone.
so, it's been nice to get the children off to school, locking the door behind them, and being alone. i have loved it. love it.
but i am soooo ready for chris to return. can't wait to wake up to his body next to mine. having him sit next to me at lacrosse games. having family prayer with the whole family. knowing he can drive one way when i have to drive another way. having him in the next room.
knowing he's there. i've missed him.
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