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9 times out of 10 lana is perfect.

she's calm.
she's gentle.
she's accommodating.
she listens.
she's helpful.
she's kind.
she's a good sister.
she's patient.

all things good.

as a baby she was perfect. really. she was. my friend's husband even said if he was sure their baby would be like lana, he would have another.

not much has changed.

but, occasionally, every once in a while, she loses it. some little thing will set her off and she will blow a gasket.

yesterday was one of those days. she was upset she had to share a lego project with noah. she could not be talked to. no reasoning to be had. there was no way to solve the problem peacefully.

so she was sent to time out after much loud crying and yelling and stomping. there was more loud crying and yelling and stomping as she was in time out. also mumbling and muttering under her breath and i remember hearing scratching on the chalkboard.

she finally got over it. it took awhile. she wouldn't talk to me for a long time. (because it's always my fault.) after all had settled, and she was her perfect self again, i asked her what had happened. she said she didn't even know.

i can relate. sometimes i loose it and after the fact, i have a hard time figuring out the real reason for my psychotic break.

after all were snug and warm in bed last night, i found a message on the chalkboard.



i followed the arrow to this...


(i love that she wrote HATE LANA and not LOVE LANA. and the broken heart.)

did i mention above, she's a bit dramatic?