soon

we left the house before all the stuff was
packed. ceily had just bid farewell to her best-ie. she was teary eyed. by the time we made it to the corner, she was heaving with sobs. silently, eddie's tears were falling in the back. i hear lana softly crying as we drove. all i want to do is tell them it will be ok...soon.

soon they will have more best friends. soon they will run through our new front door and never even think about the old one.

last night eddie was sobbing in bed. he missed his friends. as we all snuggled with our memories, noah was heard saying; "it's ok eddie. i miss my friends too."

chris had gathered us together, one last time, in an empty house, to kneel and thank our father in heaven for the life we had created within those walls. i know i have what's important- my family. together. but, it was hard closing the door. i like to think that maybe the new little family starting a life within, will feel an essence about them. maybe as the mother turns the water to fill the tub for her babies, the bubbles forming will pop with tiny glimpses of a sweet life had before. of babies splashing with laughter; water spilling over. of children running up and down the stairs, shouting. of parents holding hands on the front porch swing. a baby girl taking her first steps. a newborn's first smile. a beautiful girl becoming 12. a boy kicking soccer balls out back. love and happiness.

all the happenings making up a lifetime.

waiting for us within the walls of our new home.

soon.